The Sixth Letter

I’m struggling to remember
The way 
That you sound
I try to meet you in dreams
The feeling lingers but
You never stay around
The mental image
Fades 
Ever so slightly
It’s subtle, but I can tell
That I’m struggling. 
I’m struggling-
To remember you well.
Recently I’ve noticed it
Now so ever than before
That I don’t miss you enough
And that I miss you so much more.
That I miss how it feels
To not miss it all
I whisper your name
And no one answers my call.
I pretend you’re sitting somewhere
Watching me through a little shuttering telescope
Receiving my letters
In the space telegram
Smiling at the thought that you’re not alone 
As we both fall down this downward slope.
And that you write back to me
The papers are just lost somewhere
In the mail.
But I’ll wait for them to come
And to read all that they entail.
I’m struggling to remember
But I cannot forget
And if I’m being honest
Now so ever 
Than before
I’m scared that I don’t miss you enough
And that I miss you 
So much more.
Letters to you,
Letters from me,
Unanswered yesterday,
Today will be the same.