My Palms Read My Fate

my hands are stained with blood, 
i can only pray it isn’t yours; 
i’m drunk on low self-esteem, 
drifting from these shores, 
my mind - the sail - is full. 
the wind is blown.
the seeds of this sunken ship are sown.

i hold my hand out in the light,
my fingers tremble, palms unsteady;
the blood sits in its crevices tight.
i frantically rub my hands in sea,
the waves, the salt, wash over me;
yet my hands—not coarse—stay bloody pale.

i think, it is too late,
the blood has filled my lines of fate.
i try to paddle back to shore,
Yet, my mind - the sail - is full.
the wind is blown.
the seeds of this sunken ship are sown.