All the Trains I’ve Missed

I missed my train,
To wait for you.
When you came,
As you always do
You took the next one,
Leaving me at the station.
So I ran and ran,
Heart in hand,
Teary-eyed,
Face in sand,
Telling myself you must not have noticed me standing there for you.

But I know,
That as you brushed me by
You waited for me to meet your eyes
So you could see me 
Try to conceal my surprise
As I watched you walk away, again.

I heard someone say
That the one in love wins
No matter if he loses
For loving is a winner’s sin
But I am no winner
For no matter the trains I have to miss
I lose myself to take your side
Denial is a river
And I'm swept 
And I’m lost
And I drown in your tide.
I'm afraid I'll only learn 
When all the trains I could have taken
Leave me 
At this empty station.
When all the times I could have run
I ran to the bullet 
Instead of away from the gun.
The one in love so rarely wins
The truth is
Loving is but a loser’s sin.